While I was finishing my laundry today (which was hand washed) I asked myself "Do I wanna do this all my life?" no, not just the laundry but the baby sitting. Do I really wanna do that for all my remaining years? I am still 26, I still have what atleast 44 years of being alive. 10 years of "semi adult life". I wanna see the world and experience the lifestyle that I want. Right now, I feel stuck.
I feel wasted.
I feel life just wasting away.
I wanna go to work, but I don't know if I am fit for the job. I wanna start a business but I guess I need little push. I don't know. People who are supposed to push me to try and do my best are the people who don't wanna invest with me. Mamang, when I talked about the house at Emily. Gary, when I talked about the book business that I wanted last year. Sometimes I ask myself do I deserve this? or what did I do to deserve them? This kind of love?
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