Today was a pretty cool day. I got to know more people and appreciated the tranquility of life. I also got to know Gary's side regarding children and marriage. Just like before, I am still confused to where this relationship will lead us. I am pretty sure for myself though that I am dating for marriage I just don't know if he's the right person for me.
I think of gary as a younger person whom I need to protect and whom I need to provide for. He is quite immature for his age, I and many others (including her mom) says his younger brother who is almost 5 years younger than him is a lot more mature than he is. My boyfriend whom I am dating for almost 6 years is unapologetically immature that I think we might not end up together in the future. I do love him but there is this sense of "comfort, convenience, and security" that I don't feel towards him, that is "lacking" from him.
I do really wish we end up together because I like his family, and for some reason I would love to be part of his family. But in the end of the day I will "marry" him and not his family. I will live with him and make family with him for the rest of my life. Could I do that? Could I be that person for him? Could he be that person for me? For a hopeless romatic like me, I want a love that will take a lifetime. I don't wanna do my parents' mistake of falling out of love in marriage, I want and need a love that will transend through time. A person who can be with me no matter what.
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