church

" went to church today, and it was good. i went with papang and ante inday though i have small problems because of money, i know i will be okay and my thesis, gary's thesis and arch 500 will be just fine. i just need to be more vigilant! naa bitaw si Lord. kailangan pod ko mag fasting ug mag abstinence. "

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dilemma

" i am writing this again by memory 'cause i haven't really wrote anything this last few days, so here it is -- i woke up at 3am and found burjack (gary and the gang likes to call him bruce and he is somehow accustomed to his name now) pooped, well it was disgusting. i told burjack to be patient 'cause i'll be back, i'll just have to do my own business in the cr -- when i was back he almost ate all his poop, and it was a horrible experience. 

when the night went on, mamang told me that she did not include papang in our monthly budget -- and it was so disturbing, i don't know what was in her mind at all. maybe she didn't know that when the time comes that she could not work anymore -- i will be the one to care for her 'cause those people who she thought was trustworthy enough wasn't really worthy at all. i told her but she wouldn't listen -- so, i can't do anything but be sad about that fact alone "

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home

" sometimes i miss being home and other times i just don't wanna be home, maybe if i'll be able to just live with papang alone with our pets we'll be better. having to live in a house that is almost rundown and is dirty plus it has my cousins in it, and they are ungrateful and they does not respect me or papang -- or our home as a matter of fact -- i just wish that someday i will have a home of my own with papang in it and we'll be happy -- 'cause you know, i will never leave papang no matter what. haven't been home everyday for the last couple of years but i will never leave him. "

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grumpy

" the first photo was generated 'cause my teacher had finished our lessons late (which i totally understand 'cause thanks to him we don't have to go to school tomorrow) and gary has to get his plans checked at 11am  -- i wasn't been able to sleep at night my body was really tired and i rested from 2:30 pm to 8:00 pm -- haven't really worked my butt  off on gary's thesis -- i kept on asking myself if  this all worth it in the end, the way people look at me -- like i do not have any dignity at all (this is about the land lady) while i was doing my very best on something that is not really mine. i remember jovelle (jek's friend) told me "ikaw lang man gihapon ang makabenifit ana, te" and i told him "dili man ni akoa" but yet i was doing my best while gary is sleeping -- telling me that he cannot do it and has so many rants, seeing him like that has had made me grumpy all day 'cause it was like what the fuck gar, ginatabangan ka -- halos wala kay trabaho sa imuhang thesis, ikaw pa kusog magreklamo na dili nimo kaya! samantalang ako sa una -- wala gyuy nagtabang sa akoa gikan sa akoang manuscript hantod sa akoang plans ug pirmi ka wala ug permi ka magrason maong maka depressed gyud -- ug maong wala gyud ko nahuman kay besides sa kulang ko ug support wala gyud kuy maisip -- to be honest, swerte na kaayo ka sayon imuhang project ug naa pa kay kauban. so ayaw ko ingna na dili nimo kaya - dili lang gyud nimo gusto! kay lahi ng wala gyud nakaya ug dili gyud makaya, kay naexperience gyud nako na-- but hey i'm okay"

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memory

" to be utterly honest i forgot to take photos on january 4 because i was so busy drafting gary's floor plans and site plan so here is what happened based on my memory -- it was an actual normal day, the day when angkol (the boy in the photo) told me that he knew the real deal about his ex-girlfriend auntie (who was one of my closest friend) and it was also the day when the land lady of gary and jek's flat said "nagadala pagyud mo ug babae diri" like i was eventually one of the reasons their water bill is high this all happened while i was doing my nails. i hate to say this but she actually thought that i am a sex slave or whatsoever and that i am not really here for the thesis -- and after all the nights and days i worked so damn hard, that is sad "

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burjack

"so we went and name this dog, bruce but the name burjack is so funny and somehow suits hi -- still he was called bruce -- i and jekjek. calls him burjack for enjoyment though. we've connected to a faster network (internet) today thanks to kuya buddy (the guy who worked here at YOD) told him we'll connect for a week -- though i haven't payed him yet, i will eventually tomorrow."

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sleepy

"it was a super tiring day, ended up grumpy and mad. he still made me smile by just being his funny weird self. made a fruit salad for papang and him today, haven't got the photo but it tasted great! we also went out to get his new dog today. lastly we went to nccc to buy his leash and saw kuya martin and daphne, she's such a sweet kid."

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first

"happy new year, world! there are many things that i am so hopeful this year and i hope it would be an awesome year ahead! had a very sweet moment with my love just now -- cheers, for more romantic moments for us and for more memories, travel, learnings and love! 

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